just when I started to get back to writing I will stop for awhile. well stop here anyway because I am going to be off line. that is okay. maybe I will write with a pen instead. I going to Australia and New Zealand on a cruise. This not really something I would have chosen to do. I said yes to it a year ago thinking something would come up and we wouldn’t actually end up going. I was wrong. We are leaving tomorrow on an airplane. The first of a series of airplanes that I would rather not think about. I am taking a few drugs with me and I hope they help. I certainly have to shut of my mind and all of its fears. Well. Not much I can do. I am going okay. There is no turning back. It is what it is. I am packed. I tried to pack light but that never works. At least I can close my suitcase and so far it is not too heavy. I am using a small to moderate sized one. It is light blue with white stripes. It stands out. I like that. I have a backpack that is already pretty full with two neck rolls ( I have two different kinds) and my airplane blanket. I like to bring my own and my noise reduction head phones. It sounds like I am a seasoned flier. I am not. I like to be prepared. I have some sleeping pills and my husband has a few valium. That should do it. 15 hours is the longest flight. What do you think? Sound like fun to you. No I am not flying first class.